This is more of a philosophical question than a question of whether or not you want to purchase a different grill.
Having been under duress for 23 years in the military, I find that I very rarely deny my self anything that I really want especially now that I am 71 years old.
Yes, there are a lot of regrets, but, you may find that if you fulfill your small requests, and this is a small request, you may feel better about yourself. There are too many things in life, we do not get experience, so don't deny your self some small ones.
If you rationalize that this inappropriate, that is ok as well. But, the important thing is, you have made the decision.
Whatever you decide to do, more power to you.