I really enjoyed reading through the whole thread till I learned of your loss:(
I can't imagine how you have managed to keep it together and move forward in life, but we always have to. I'm really feeling for you and your family and hope you can keep us all informed through the upcoming winter.
I am opening a BBQ restaurant as I type this note and have a few months to go before I am opened. We all learn a lot on threads like yours and can find many things that relate to us. I hope your venture continues to grow and be prosperous, because I know it's a dream and huge risk.