Do not beat yourself up Mr. Leatherhead, you have a young family. My best advice to you is enjoy your time with them.
I was a former union president at a IAFF local. I took away way too much time from my children. Working 24, 48 and sometime working 144 hr shifts in a row w/o being at home really hurt our family.
You have never really lived until you have done something for someone who can never repay you.
KC I miss your advice.
Heavily medicated for your protection.
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